I genuinely love reading schizo tangents like the ones you’re posting. It’s really interesting to see how pure and unbridled thoughts form and run amok when they’re allowed to naturally flow. When I allow my brain to flow with no restrictions, it sometimes feels like I’ve been taken over by the spirit of creativity or something. Maybe not creativity, but moreso spontaneity? Spontaneity that is often times channeled into creativity?
I think, generally speaking, most people’s brains and thought processes have a very similar, core, biological and foundational way of working, regardless of how different we are externally. A lot of the times, it’s hard to recognize the similarities of how our brains and emotions work fundamentally, compared to other people. Our internal thoughts and feelings are often times difficult to relate to other people around ourselves, because of how differently everyone externalizes themselves.
The fact that a large amount of people learn to internalize their deepest feelings and struggles, while externalizing what they “think” they should be perceived as, makes it so that we don’t even realize how similarly we all think / feel at that core level.
Maybe the internalization of one’s emotions is a learned behavior due to the fear of judgement and fear of being perceived as “different” from others? The need to fit in with the “majority” and match societal norms?
Our perception of the “majority” is essentially just how other people externalize their own thoughts and emotions. And the way that other people externalize their thoughts and emotions is often times drastically different than our own ways.
(How we externalize mostly depends on the culmination of our life experiences, interests, childhood memories, etc etc.)
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Even though we all have the same core fundamental emotions and thought processes, we often times externalize and represent ourselves in extremely different ways. We are similar on so many levels, yet we express ourselves in so many different ways. Ways that we learned from observations during adolescence, or whichever time is most formative during one’s lifetime. Which makes it difficult to relate and empathize at times.
Side tangent: the more I view people as a culmination of their emotions, experiences, and memories, the easier it is to relate, communicate and empathize with them.
Rather than trying to relate with what they do or what their interests are on a surface level, I try to relate with who they are at a core level.
Also, the more I explain this stuff, the more obvious this shit seems to me, which gives me a slight sense of feeling dumb, like “yeah duh, obviously surface level shit isn’t deep”. Idk. I think using verbose language helps give a slightly new perspective on how to perceive certain things.
Tangent tangent tanget. Schizo schizo shizo.