{"content":"\n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/div>\n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 364 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed November 2016<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-06T15:28:49+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^ most likely a combination that i wouldn't -- it may be unique, but nobody said i had to be able to identify it~ and also i don't most of the things i eat all that well, not on the spot... i forget taste and generally am not the person to ask for food-related questions. however, to give at least some answer, although it probably isn't the most unique i've had (because i wouldn't know if i can't to begin with), i guess i would include something like chili and lemon flakes on bread... maybe in the top twenty of the list, in some unknown position< i don't want to live like this. but i don't seem to know how to bring myself to willingly stop this gross negligence of my well-being. it feels like i can't live until i have a sense of self i can willingly develop through a method i can tangibly reach and understand. and that person, as i see it, would have had to be born in different circumstances much more suitable for them to behold than this> i fear you all, kind of, but not entirely. am i exaggerating? maybe it's not fear at all, not so much as it is shame. it's hard to understand people here, but maybe that's people in general... i'm sure it's the same for many others, after allv what is something you are greatly insecure about that you wish people could understand the nuances of, as well as how they informed your perspective and therefore the way you respond to your circumstances?<\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n Last edited by Achromalia<\/a> 2025-01-06T15:32:51+00:00<\/time>, edited 1 time in total.\n <\/div>\n \n \n \u2317\u2385\u2317 \u2237<\/span> left to haunt the earth, in want of form for function<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u2317\u2385\u2317<\/span>\u25cc\u25c9\u25cc \u2237<\/span> yet to learn its dearth, in wit and soul's conjunction<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u25cc\u25c9\u25cc<\/span><\/span>\u2237 \u2606 \u2237 <\/span> now playing:<\/span><\/span>\u266c \u2237 <\/span> M\u03a3\u03a3B\u03a3\u03a3 - \"countless grains arranged in a grid are waving randomly\" <\/span><\/a> \u2237 \u266c<\/span><\/span><\/strong><\/center><\/div><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/span>\n <\/div>\n \n synthwavesquid<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 234 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed February 2021<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n synthwavesquid<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-06T19:21:45+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^ idk if insecure is the right word (close enough?), but just my entire existance. how i function internally. i tried so hard to be what i was 'supposed' to be, and now when i think of normalacy i just want to retreat into the woods and never be seen again< i really want to make a video game but i keep avoiding making any actual progress towards that> octoling\/inkling tentacles look very chewable (but they probably taste like paint)v game you think more people should play?<\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n <\/audio>>> [ now playing: The Unmatched Power of the Scag - Kreagato ]<\/code><\/span><\/a>it\/they\/ey<\/code><\/center><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/div>\n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 364 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed November 2016<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-07T00:59:42+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^ yours, when (not if!! i jest, do as you will) it arrives on itch\/steam\/[other]...alternatively, mine, if that story ever gets told well enough to merit the development of a game. i conceived it a few years ago, but have really only fed it what little substance i already feed to myself. there is hardly even a premise beyond the vague promise of imageryanyway, a more serious but still non-actionable answer: im not quite sure... i forget what games i valued, and its hard to imagine exactly what value anyone else would derive from them. i could list any game that does come to mind, but i dont think it would qualify, since it would not be truthful to the premise of \"people should\" that \"i think\" is prompted to carry< a great portion of my compensatory and qualifying behaviors is motivated by the fears of being wrong\/incompetent, of causing harm, of being incapable of change, and of being insincere\/duplicitous. insofar as it matters to me, i would not value those things as indicative of any \"inherent virtue\", and virtue seems to be enough of an alienating concept for me as it already is, especially in conjunction with \"inherent\/essential\" characteristics, but thats likely only a reflection of those same fears and their implications (which i respond to with escapism)> i am still surprised people appear to view me as positively as they claim to. is it the privilege of articulation? what do people normally see? what do people normally value that they believe i possess? and how much do i value that in light of wanting not to be a perceptible person so much as an intangible enabler of consequence? how do i use the personhood and characteristics attributed to me for the purposes i bear in mind? why do i intuitively and naturally write like this when i presumably could be less ornamental about myself and ought to make my point more directly? why am i respected in any way, when many others (who i seemed to believe myself to be associable with) are instead more readily disrespected? is it a lack of information, a lack of familiarity? why do i appear mysterious to some? i suppose i could wonder the same from my own perspective... why are people so mysterious to me, \"normal\" and \"abnormal\" alike, and why do i seem to care as much as i do if for a purpose beyond my ego or my survival?v what are your primary spurces of curiosity about people, or alternatively, their behavior in relation to your own?<\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n Last edited by Achromalia<\/a> 2025-01-07T01:00:33+00:00<\/time>, edited 1 time in total.\n <\/div>\n \n \n \u2317\u2385\u2317 \u2237<\/span> left to haunt the earth, in want of form for function<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u2317\u2385\u2317<\/span>\u25cc\u25c9\u25cc \u2237<\/span> yet to learn its dearth, in wit and soul's conjunction<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u25cc\u25c9\u25cc<\/span><\/span>\u2237 \u2606 \u2237 <\/span> now playing:<\/span><\/span>\u266c \u2237 <\/span> M\u03a3\u03a3B\u03a3\u03a3 - \"countless grains arranged in a grid are waving randomly\" <\/span><\/a> \u2237 \u266c<\/span><\/span><\/strong><\/center><\/div><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/span>\n <\/div>\n \n synthwavesquid<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 234 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed February 2021<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n synthwavesquid<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-19T10:27:42+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^<\/code> ...whatever intrigues me in the moment i guess? i don't know, i observe people a lot but don't really want to talk to them most of the time. their reactions? foundations for belief? something you could probably summarise as some kind of \"theory\" of thought? there's a part of me that's obsessed with digesting what i see (and excessively aware of what that can mean), meanwhile i have so little interest in actually applying it because i'm not nearly invested in the actual people themselves or whatever i could seek to gain enough to really want toand because it's holed away in my brain in a weird manner, i can forget about it easily... and also because i don't exactly trust myself to handle that kind of thing<\/span><<\/code> i'm kibty><\/code> does the black moon howl?v<\/code> what's a morally dubious\/outright morally bad thing you'd do if there were no concequences\/moral weight\/lack of capability\/whatever is preventing you from doing it? idk, seems like a question i might get some interesting responses out of<\/span><\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n Last edited by synthwavesquid<\/a> 2025-01-19T10:28:21+00:00<\/time>, edited 1 time in total.\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/audio>>> [ now playing: The Unmatched Power of the Scag - Kreagato ]<\/code><\/span><\/a>it\/they\/ey<\/code><\/center><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/div>\n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 364 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed November 2016<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n Achromalia<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-19T11:08:43+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^<\/code> even if i would think of a limit to preface it with, i really can't imagine i would be accurate in suggesting there's anything i couldn't do... but maybe the most truthful answer i can consciously give for now is \"anything that i'm not deeply uninterested or unable to imagine compelling myself toward doing\", but i also am not sure what exactly the prompt means yet. is this a removal of external consequence\/impositions\/restrictions (inclusive of \"is it that nothing happens and nobody cares if i do something, or merely that it has no legal consequence?\"), or is it a complete removal of internal inhibition in order to reveal the terrain of what things i might want to do? i would suspect for most if not all cases, my answer more specifically seems inclusive of a variety of things ranging from consistent theft, violation of privacy (think digital surveillance and snooping around for secrets or personal histories) and tresing, disguising myself and gaining access under false pretense (think of maybe being able to listen in on something or retrieve private information without bothering people because they believe i appear like i belong there), discriminating between who i pay money to and withholding a portion of how much i pay if i think someone is well-off or being exploitative... maybe i could also hurt\/kill someone if they were doing the same or worse to me or possibly another person, but it's hard to tell because i'm not very aware of what i could want to do even if i were disinhibited... possibly fraud? they're really just guesses at this point because it's hard to believe i would feel compelled enough to put anything to action even when i had the opportunity and lightness-of-heart-or-mind to do sogood question\/prompt though, i'm... vaguely interested in seeing what each person would answer with(if the prompt is still around, hopefully i can answer with something more substantive)<<\/code> maybe i should not be trusted with responsibility, i will probably neglect something that's important to other people and will probably be too fearful to attempt anything despite indecision often being one of the worst and least practical approaches. at the same time though, maybe there would be potential for trust if that could be resolved, i seem to take most things very seriously if i believe (or am proven to myself) that i can approach them and for their consequences><\/code> stealing that arrow format. i thought it would be funsynthwavesquid wrote:<\/h4>v<\/code> what's a morally dubious\/outright morally bad thing you'd do if there were no concequences\/moral weight\/lack of capability\/whatever is preventing you from doing it? idk, seems like a question i might get some interesting responses out of<\/span><\/blockquote><\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n Last edited by Achromalia<\/a> 2025-01-19T11:59:08+00:00<\/time>, edited 8 times in total.\n <\/div>\n \n \n \u2317\u2385\u2317 \u2237<\/span> left to haunt the earth, in want of form for function<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u2317\u2385\u2317<\/span>\u25cc\u25c9\u25cc \u2237<\/span> yet to learn its dearth, in wit and soul's conjunction<\/span><\/em> \u2237 \u25cc\u25c9\u25cc<\/span><\/span>\u2237 \u2606 \u2237 <\/span> now playing:<\/span><\/span>\u266c \u2237 <\/span> M\u03a3\u03a3B\u03a3\u03a3 - \"countless grains arranged in a grid are waving randomly\" <\/span><\/a> \u2237 \u266c<\/span><\/span><\/strong><\/center><\/div><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n sametdze<\/a>\n\n \n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n <\/span>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n \n \n \n 363 posts\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n\n \n ed July 2021<\/strong>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n \n \n \n sametdze<\/a>\n\n \n 2025-01-19T11:40:48+00:00<\/time>\n <\/a>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n ^ i'd love to steal a tram < i've always found it annoying how you don't know about anything while you're sleeping. when i was younger i used to try to gain my consciousness as i slept, but that's kind of just dreaming, right?> the leather on my shoes is going fluffy now v if the person below me could freeze time for however long they'd like, what would they do?<\/div>\n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n\n \n \n Pyatyy Kontinent!<\/strong><\/audio><\/div>\n <\/div>\n \n <\/div>\n <\/div>\n 10o4a